Decisions

The wind and storms have ended for today,

And evening slips unthreatening up to me.

A salty tear reveals my deep dismay,

Impeding my ability to see.

I don’t know what to say or what to do;

Most times this world’s not painted black or white.

My intention is: tell you what is true,

Ask forgiveness, and step into God’s light.

You may have been happy, I’ll never know,

I never asked you or wanted to hear.

I made my decision, alone and slow,

Closing my eyes when I looked in the mirror.

I wanted what’s best for me, no one else.

Goodbye what could have been, love never felt.